Autumn 2006 - Summer 2007

Going Out

Killing the loneliness with royal grace
Find the mistakes within my estates.
Open your arms and call me by name,
I"ve never been doing the same.

Longing for him, he"s the only one,
Tell me to stop because I have gone.
Making me answer on all words of yours
I will always say just "because"

Remember the letters you"d sent me before
And now you don"t write anymore.
Just "hi" and "good bye" I hear from the Sun.
I start to believe that I"ve gone.

I stop to be fun; I start to be sad,
Be always confused and always afraid.
I won"t be alive and I won"t be dead,
I want to return what I had.

The One

Singing girl with the Scent of Winter in Her voice,
She who holds the Waters of the Earth,
She who brings the Stars to me, who helps the World to live,
She who comes to me with love and She who starts the Spring.

She"s the Secret Flower of the Moon,
She creates the Wine of Life which"s drinking so soon.
Let me be burned through by the Sun, I"ll always wait and hope
That Queen of Gentle Beauty will touch me by Her Soul.

I let myself to love the Girl who is the Hope.
She"s flying above the Waves and She"s waiting for love.
I let myself kiss the Lips of That Girl.
I live for Her and I"ll die for Her love.

The Soldier of
The Night

Today"s so hard to make myself,
So hard to live within all greed.
I tear myself for part of twelve,
I still become the poorest weed.


I tear the chains around my heart,
I dive in sea of sorrow"s cold
And side by side with great delight
I feel the pain of the whole world.

One little Sun for my vast Moon,
Another for the sky of night.
So many thoughts are flying there
Where I can"t grasp - to left or to right.

The way to left is easiest of
That ways where I was never gleaming,
Where I as never trying to go
In darkness, to embrace which"s healing.

The way to right is full of fears
By ancient causeless shedding blood.
Where I will not return to me,
Where I will live the Underground.

The tears which are falling from the Face,
Destroying pain of Ocean"s soul,
Dive in deep sea creating waves
And sink so deep under the Calm.

My crimson wings had lost the use,
The feathers just had burnt in sky,
The only thing I want to lose -
My life of Soldier of the Night.

Lost

That midday we lived,
Those hours we cried,
Those dangerous moments
We wanted to die.

Those minutes we hoped,
Those seconds we fight,
When we were the strangers
Of silent midnight.

The bowling with souls,
The darts with my heart
With stranger who"s often
Been calling "The God".

Good poker with Death,
Marriage with the Cruel,
When I"m always lost
And being the fool.

Beloved by the night,
And soon realize
That Night sings a song
Without reprise.

The words are confused,
The sound"s betrayed,
The pauses aren"t used
And motive"s afraid.

I raise my true sun,
I dive my true sin.
I take my true gun
And kill all within.

I crave wine of fear,
I dance with the Ghost
But I always know
That truly I"m lost.

Judgment

Tear me, judge, I cannot hide.
Throw my mind in sea of pride.
I"ll survive, I hope, I try.
Please, replace my tear of cry.

Am I scared? Am I afraid?
No! I want to close this gate.
Let my kiss go through the time
But don"t let myself be mine.

Think! I"d never touched your skin.
I had never even screamed.
I believed that you are just
But this faith has gone to past.

All my tears of being lost
Faded out with the ghost.
Think a little. I"m so far.
Let me be at least a star.

I won"t speak, won"t hear, won"t see.
I will never have a fear.
Make me free, forgive my sins.
Just try...

It's Your Life

You can rule your life
With the hands of pride.
You can hide your eyes
In the cradle of lies.

You are always strong
In the fight with bones.
And you"re always weak
In your being free.

You can never love
If you don"t want to craft.
You can never hate
If you"re always late.

Do you want to be kind?
So, don"t make yourself cry.
Do you want to be cruel?
Explain it to the Rule!

Where your magic starts
You forget you gods.
So let"s change the scene
In explaining of things

The Black Line

Choosing my life I regret of the past.
I have no one for whom I can trust.
I have no mercy - I just have no choice:
Somebody"s touching and somebody"s voice.

Tender and softly I sleep in this life,
There is no danger and there"s no drive.
Life is the kicking and there are no ways:
Painful looking through ugly disgrace.

Caught in the trap I have lost my last life.
Only one step - I"ll appear out of fight.
Keeping the wishes of rest and the calm,
Living when night comes and till the next dawn.
Life"s broken down and living is dead.
Wearing the gown I"ve lost all I had.
Destiny"s cruel and hers mercy has gone,
No one believes, they are always to run.

Thoughts are all real, the crushing has stopped.
I"ve even met the girl, love to craft.
Mercy"s returned and repainted my world:
It now lets no one be at fault.

The Indigo

Breathing slowly with the pain inside.
Seeing no light because you"re closed-eyed.
Feeling dry after the embrace of wet.
Losing the tenderest you"ve ever had.


Opening eyes and the light strikes you down.
Sleeping like dead because there"s too calm.
What is "the thought"? And you"ve thought the first time,
Thinking you have slowly crossed the first line.

"Lying and sitting but why they all stand?
I want it too. Mom! Take me by my hand,
I"m gonna stand, I am going to walk.
Look at me!" That was the way you have talked.

All your first words were especial ones,
People were coming like sun always comes.
Playing their games you have felt smell of muse,
Going out you"ve left them confused

You walked in nowhere, you felt you"re allowed.
You knew it all but you couldn"t be proud.
There"s no reason to be cruel or good,
There"s no reason to need something proved.

Feel like you"re strong when you got something new.
Feel like you"re weak when you feel that"s not true,
Make it all stoned for your mind to feed.
You"re always the strongest indeed.

Prison

Somewhere in the sky
I can find myself in prison.
I don"t know why
Why I"m here and what"s the reason?

Silk of spider"s kiss
Made my blood enchanted.
Drug"s inside my veins
Made my minutes counted.

Cross has pierced in breast
Breaking my religion,
Finding at least
One and true decision.

Stones of my wall
Made my freedom cut.
Losing present fall
I tear out my heart.
Angel of the sky
Come to me this night,
Give me just a try,
Give a chance to hide.

To touch to tender skin,
To kiss your pale lips.
Let me take you in
Blessed by fingertips.

Get me out "f this hell,
Take me up in heaven.
Let me feel your smell,
Be with me forever.

Becoming cold

There nothing touches in this world
And words are not in need.
Our hearts are stoned and so cold
And this is our creed.

Goodnight, my world, I go away
And hide in deepest dark.
From now I have no need to pray,
I"ve bathed in well of luck.

My body"s cold, my fears have gone,
My pain has died in past.
My doing here"s completely done,
I make me new so fast.

This scarlet wine I have to drink
And never sleep in night.
And now in world I have no link,
I hide myself from light.

If you would meet me - run away,
I won"t release my good.
You can remember how to pray
But that will be a flood.

I"m empty being, living dead.
Not gracious and not cruel.
There"s no evil make you bad
Like kindness can"t make good.

Smile of Disgrace

Gentle smile of disgrace
I draw the ugly angel"s face
Heavy burden I carry on
With the pain in my bones

Strange recall inside my head
I"m afraid, I remember yet
My fingers stopped with heavy pain
I have no lives to gain

Angel"s wings have become his gown
I gather the tears which are falling down
From the angel"s face, from the angel"s eyes
I"ve drawn the painting of lies


I return back to my world
Here"s too dark and so cold
Angel"s standing at my face
With the smile of disgrace

Break the laws we made those days
Break the fear of my mind
Throw it out to another place
Where they are deaf and blind

I began my paint that day
When he"d come to room
And I finish it now
In the arms of the bloom


љ Copyright: Архитектор, 2007
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