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Ëåâ Ãóíèí
"ÂÑß" ÈÇÁÐÀÍÍÀß ÏÎÝÇÈß

 

 
CJÜVHV CHOB
ÑÒÐÀÍÀ ÑÍÎÂ


  ===================
              

       Ìèãåëþ Ëàìèýëþ,
               ìîåìó äðóãó, âîëøåáíèêó îáðàçîâ



                  1

                                      ÎÍÀ...
                               Çà âîðîòàìè âçãëÿäà,
                               çà ïðåäåëàìè äíÿ,
                               åñòü ñòðàíà íåîáû÷íàÿ,
                               âîò÷èíà òüìû.
                               Ðàçëàãàåò îíà
                               óñêîëüçàþùèé äåíü
                               íå íà ðàäóãó ãðåç -
                               à íà öâåò ïóñòîòû.
                               Çàïèðàåò îíà
                               ñâîèõ óçíèêîâ (íàñ)
                               â êàçåìàòàõ áåçâðåìåíüÿ,
                               â îêðóæåíüå õèìåð.
                               Â ëàïû ëèïêèõ îáúÿòèé
                               õâàòàåò îíà
                               ñâîèõ âå÷íûõ ðàáîâ,
                               ñâîèõ ÷àõëûõ äåòåé,
                               çàñòàâëÿåò ðàáîòàòü
                               íà ïýðîâ ñâîèõ
                               è ê ðàññâåòó îïÿòü
                               âîçâðàùàåò äîìîé...



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                               Äâà çðà÷êà - êàê äâà äóëà,
                               íàöåëåííûõ â òåìíîòó.
                               Êîãäà öåïëÿåòñÿ íîãà ðàçóìà
                               çà áåññîçíàíüÿ êîâåð,
                               îòêðûâàþòñÿ øëþçû áåçâðåìåíüÿ,
                               çàêðûâàþòñÿ äâåðè òþðüìû -
                               çà ñïèíîé...

                               Î÷åíü ìåäëåííî,
                               ñëîâíî íà ñòûêå âðåìåí,
                               îïóñêàþòñÿ äâå ãðîáîâûå ïëèòû -
                               îïóñêàþòñÿ âåêè - òþðüìû âîðîòà,
                               ïîãëîùàÿ òåáÿ, ðàçäåâàÿ òåáÿ,
                               ïðîâîæàÿ óìåëî ïîä ñâîäû
                               õèìåð.

                               Òàì âñÿ æèçíü âûòåêàåò èç ñïÿùèõ áðîâåé,
                               èç ïîñòåëüþ íî÷íîé îáåçäâèæåííûõ òåë,
                               èç óøåé, ÷òî òåðÿþò ñ ðåàëüíîñòüþ ñâÿçü,
                               ñëûøà ñòðàííûé ÷óæîé íåëèíîâàííûé áðåä.

                               Çëî êîëåíè ñâîè ïîãðóæàåò â çðà÷êè,
                               çàïóñêàåò æåëåçíûå êîãòè â òâîé ìîçã,
                               ÷òîáû ìó÷èòü è æå÷ü, óáèâàòü è ïûòàòü,
                               è ñëóæèòü îäíîãëàçûì âàññàëàì ñâîèì...


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                               Î÷åíü ìåäëåííî - âïëàâü -
                               ðàçðåçàåòñÿ ðîò
                               íåäåëèìûì êîìêîì âåêîâîé ïóñòîòû,
                               ÷òî íå âûïëþíóòü ïðîñòî, íå âûðâàòü ïîòîì,
                               ÷òî ìàëèíîâî ðäååò â ñîçíàíüè òâîåì.


                                         4

                                  FLAT  UBI  VULT
                               Òû ñî ñìåðòüþ èãðàòü ïðèâåäåí-ïðèãëàøåí
                               â ïîñëåæèçíåííûé ãîëüô, èëè â ìèíè-ôóòáîë.
                               Òû èäåøü ïî ìåñòàì, ãäå êîãäà-òî õîäèë,
                               âèäèøü íîâûõ ëþäåé èëè ñòàðûõ äðóçåé.
                               Ïîñòåïåíî èãðàòü íà÷èíàåøü òîãäà,
                               ïîäôóòáîëèâàòü ëèõî ñâîåé ãîëîâîé.

                               Ñåðäöåì ìåòêî ñâîèì óãîäèøü
                               â áàñêåòáîëüíóþ ñåòêó ñìåðòåëüíîé èãðû,
                               íå æåëàÿ ãàäàòü, ÷åì òåáÿ íàãðàäÿò,
                               íå ðèñêóÿ çàãëÿäûâàòü â ÷åðíóþ äàëü...


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                                   ÊÓÄÅÑÍÈÊÈ ÎÁÌÀÍÀ

                                              
They are waitung for us to die.
                                         ------ From conversation

                               Òîëüêî äåòÿì äàðÿò âîëøåáíèêè çëà
                               ñâîè ñëàäêèå ñíû, ôðóêòû îáìàíà ñâîè,
                               íà âåòâÿõ èõ ðàçâåñèâ óñëóæëèâî
                               ëèïêîé ñâîåé ïóñòîòû,
                               èìè ëîâêî ïðèêðûâ -
                               êàê ñòûäëèâî ðóêà íàãîòó -
                               ñìûñëà ðâàíûå ðàíû,
                               çëîâîííûå ïðàâäû öâåòû
                               è ñòóïåíè ðàñïàäà ðåàëüíîñòè â òîíêèõ çåëåíûõ ãëàçàõ.

                               Îñòàëüíûì - êðîìå ãëóïûõ áåçóñûõ þíöîâ -
                               îíè äàðÿò ñïåêòàêëü ñ íàçâàíèåì "Ñìåðòü",
                               ïðèãëàøàÿ â ó÷àñòíèêè â ôîðìå free gifts,
                               çàâëåêàÿ â ñâèäåòåëè æóòêèõ êðûëàòûõ ìèðîâ,
                               îãëóøàÿ ìåëüêàíèåì ìåòàìîðôîç.

                               Ñìàêîâàíèå õàîñà â èõ (êàê îñïîé - ëèöî)
                               ìåòåîðàìè ëæè èçðûòûõ ïëàíåòàõ,
                               êàêèõ
                               çàãîòîâëåíî íåñêîëüêî äëÿ ïðåçðåííûõ ðàáîâ.
                               Êàæäûé ñîí ïîâòîðÿåòñÿ,
                               íî íå êàæäûé åãî
                               â ñîñòîÿíèè âñïîìíèòü,
                               óçíàòü,
                               îòäåëèòü îò äðóãèõ,
                               çàãëÿíóòü â åãî,
                               ìàñêîé çëîäåéñòâà ïîêðûòîå,
                               ðûëî-ëèöî.


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                                 AD LIBITUM
                               Ìû âî ñíå çàáûâàåì
                               ñâîé âîçðàñò,
                               ñâîé ìèð,
                               äàæå èìÿ ñâîå
                               ìû òåðÿåì âî ñíå.
                               Åñëè ïîìíèì âñå
                               ýòî - òî ýòî
                               íå ñîí:
                               ýòî äðåìà,
                               êîòîðîþ íàñ íàãðàäèë
                               ÒÎÒ, êòî ëþáèò ïîñëóøíûõ,
                               ëþáîñòðàñòíûõ, óãîäíûõ åìó.

                               Ïðàâ ëèøàÿñü ñâîèõ,
                               ìû òåðÿåì ñåáÿ,
                               ìû òåðÿåì âñå òî,
                               ÷òî íàì ïðèíàäëåæèò;
                               òóò íå
                               ñîáñòâåííîñòü òîëüêî -
                               ìû òåëî ñâîå
                               âìåñòå ñ ïðî÷èì òåðÿåì
                               ïîä ñâîäàìè ñíà.
              
                               Íî íàäåæäû îáìàííîé
                               íàì âäåòî òóïîå êîëüöî
                               â ïðîäîëæåíèÿ âåê.
                                ÷àñ, êîãäà ìû îòõîäèì êî ñíó,
                               îáíàæåííûå ñêðèïêè çâó÷àò,
                               ïðèãëàøàÿ íàñ â ñåòè åãî ïóñòîòû.

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                                    ËÈÖÀ

                               Przychodzi do mnie noca, bierze mie w ramiona
                               I jest mi dobrze, cicho, choc nie wiem, kto ona.

                                                LEOPOLD STAFF


                               Âñå, êîãî ìû âñòðå÷àåì
                               âî ñíå -
                               íåïðèêàÿííû,
                               òàê æå áåçëè÷íû - êàê ìû.
                               Îíè òîæå çàáûëè
                               ñâîèõ æåí
                               è ìóæåé,
                               îíè ðåäêî
                               âñòðå÷àþò äåòåé
                               èëè òåõ,
                               êòî òåïåðü íå æèâåò;
                               ýòè - ãðóñòè ãîíöû.

                               Òóò áûâàþò âñåãî
                               äâå êàòåãîðèè òîëüêî:
                               òåõ, êòî æèçíü çàâåðøèë,
                               èëè òåõ, êòî ïî âîçðàñòó
                               ìëàäøå íàñòîëüêî,
                               ÷òîáû æèçíü ïðîäîëæàòü
                               ïîñëå ñìåðòè ñâèäåòåëåé ñíîâ.

                               Â òåñíûõ æàðêèõ êðèñòàëëèêàõ
                               ñîâîêóïëåíüÿ,
                               â ýòîé ïîõîòè,
                               áóäîðàæàùåé,
                               êàê çåëèå êîëäóíà,
                               â æàðêèõ ñòðàñòíûõ îáúÿòüÿõ,
                               ëèõîðàäî÷íûõ
                               è áåççâó÷íûõ,
                               äàëåêèõ,
                               åñòü ÷èñòîòà,
                               íåäîñòèæèìîñòü
                               ëþáâè íåçåìíîé,
                               íåäîñÿãàåìîé
                               æèçíüþ îáû÷íîé
                               òàê íåâîçìîæíîé,
                               êàê âèä ïóñòîòû,
                               è ñîâåðøåííîé -
                               êàê ýòîò ñîí.

                              
                               Ïðîñûïàåøüñÿ
                               ñ ëåíüþ
                               è ñ ëåãêîñòüþ,
                               ñ îùóùåíèåì
                               ñ÷àñòüÿ è äíÿ,
                               â îáíàæåííîé ïîñòåëè
                               ëåæàùèé îäèí, êàê ñ æåíîé,
                               ñâåòîì ñîëíå÷íûì, ñëîâíî êîëüöîì,
                               îáðó÷åííûé,
                               è íà
                               êðîøå÷íîì ìåñòå ñâîåì,
                               êàê êîðîëü,
                               ñâîå öàðñòâî
                               îáîçðåâøèé
                               â ìãíîâåíèå.

                               Â ýòîì ïðîæèòîì ñíå,
                               â ýòîé ñòðàñòüþ ãîðÿùåé
                               äûðå,
                               â ýòîé òàéíå,
                               îòêðûâøåéñÿ
                               áåç óñèëèé
                               (ëåãêî!),
                               çàêëþ÷åí, ìîæåò áûòü,
                               æèçíè
                               ñïðÿòàííûé ñìûñë,
                               ñîêðîâåííåéøèé
                               ñìûñë
                               òàéíîé ñâÿçè âåùåé...
 
                               è ìãíîâåíèé...


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                               AMICUS HUMANI GENERIS
                               Ýòî ñîí - ýòî îí
                               ïðîãðàììèðóåò íàñ,
                               ýòî îí
                               ãåíåðèðóåò
                               íàøó ñóäüáó,
                               ýòî îí ïîìåùàåò ñâîèõ õîëóåâ
                               íàìè ïðàâèòü,
                               çàêîíû
                               è ñóäüáû âåðøèòü.
                               Ýòî îí
                               ïîñûëàåò
                               ïîäîíêàì óñïåõ,
                               ïîäàâëÿåò
                               áåçâèííûõ,
                               óáèâàåò
                               ñâÿòûõ.
                               Ýòî îí
                               ïðîçÿáàíèå
                               â æèçíè íåñåò
                               íåñòàíäàðòíî-
                               òàëàíòëèâûì,
                               ñìåëûì,
                               íåçëûì.
                               Ýòî îí
                               íàãðàæäàåò
                               çà çëûå äåëà
                               è êàðàåò
                               çà äîáðûå
                               ãðóáûì ìå÷îì.

                               Îí äàåò ýéôîðèþ
                               íîñèòåëÿì òüìû,
                               îí áåçæàëîñòíûì
                               âîëþ ê ïîáåäå
                               äàåò,
                               îí óëûáîê ðåçèíîâûõ ìàñêè õðàíèò
                               äëÿ
                               ñòîÿùèõ ó âëàñòè
                               áåç-ëîáûõ ãðîìèë.

                               Îò ñîìíåíèé-ñòðàäàíèé
                               îñâîáîæäåíû,
                               ýòè ìîíñòðû âçîéäóò
                               íà çëîâîííûé Îëèìï
                               ãðÿçíîé âëàñòè,
                               íà âåðøèíó çåìëè -
                               ñëîâíî äåòè,
                               âåäîìûå
                               çà ðóêó   è ì.

                               À äðóãèì,
                               êòî â ñåáå
                               àòàâèçìû õðàíèò -
                               ñîñòðàäàíèÿ,
                               ñîâåñòè
                               èëè ëþáâè -
                               ñîí ïðèïðÿòàë
                               íàñòðîéêè íà
                               ãðóñòü,
                               íåóñïåõ,
                               íåóâåðåííîñòü,
                               çëóþ ñóäüáó.

                               Äàæå
                               åñëè ïîðûâ
                               èëè ñ÷àñòüÿ àëìàç
                               èì ïîäàðèò
                               èõ ñîí íåäîâåð÷èâûé:
                               ý ò à   ðàäîñòü
                               íå âïèøåòñÿ
                               â    î á ù è é    íàñòðîé;
                               ý ò î    ñ÷àñòüå
                               ãëàçà ïîâûêàëûâàåò
                               òåì, êòî áóäåò
                               çëîïàìÿòíî
                               ìñòèòü
                               çà àëìàç,
                               îñëåïèâøèé ÿðêîñòüþ.

                               Áóäóò äîëãî åùå
                               îíè äîëã ñâîé
                               ïëàòèòü
                               çà ïîäàðîê
                               ïðåäàòåëüñêèé,
                               ÷òî âåðîëîìñòâîì âðó÷åí.
                               È îáðûâêè ñèÿíèé.
                               â íî÷íîé òèøèíå
                               îáîéäóòñÿ èì
                               ïî àëìàçîâ öåíå.
                                                             


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                               seules-
                                         dans leurs chambres-

                                 les chairs
                                         enigmatiques
                                                     attendent
                                         la morte ...-

                                 le SILENCE
                                         des amperes-

                                 un cauchemar
                                         qui se repete
                                                      sans pathos
                                         ni mystere

                                     LOUIS ARMAND

                               Çà ñèëóýòîì íåèçâåñòíîãî -
                               íî÷ü.
                               Çà õàîòè÷íîñòüþ áåñïîðÿäêà -
                               ìûñëü.
                               Çà ñòåíîé íåîòêðûòîãî -
                               ñîí -
                               ÈÌÏÓËÜÑ.
                               Ñèëóýò ðàçäâèãàåòñÿ.
                               Èìïóëüñ ïðûãàåò.
                               Äåðãàåò âåêî.
                               Çâåíÿò êëþ÷è.
                               Îòêðûâàåòñÿ äâåðü.

                               Íåò!
                               Çàêðûòî çà çàäâèæêó
                               òâîå ñîçíàíèå.
                               Äâåðü íèêîãäà
                               íå îòêðîåòñÿ.
                               Ñìûñë íèêîãäà
                               íå ïðîÿâèòñÿ.
                               Ìûñëü íèêîãäà
                               íå ïðèìåò î÷åðòàíèé
                               ÿñíîñòè.

                               Âñå âîêðóã íàñ - ìèðàæ.

                               Ïðîòÿíè ñâîè ïàëüöû
                               ê îêðóæíîñòè.
                               Îùóòè áåñïðåäåëüíîå
                               ïàëüöàìè.
                               Óõâàòè çà ñòåíîé íåóõâàòíîå,
                               òî, ÷òî äàâèò ñâîåé
                               íåïðîçðà÷íîñòüþ.

                               Ãäå íåò ïàëüöåâ -
                               òàì ìûñëü íåñòðåíîæåííàÿ.
                               Ãäå íåò ìûñëåé -
                               òàì æèçíü íåïðîæèòàÿ.
                               Ãäå íåò æèçíè -
                               òàì ïåðâîïðè÷èíà
                               ñóùåãî.
                               Ãäå íåò...
                               Òàì òåáÿ íåò!


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                                     Eigentlich sind sie ganz net wie sie sind
                                     denn jeder beginnt ja am Anfang als Kind
                                     und wander weiter durch schatten und Licht
                                     dem einen fällts leicht, und dem anderen nicht
                                     doch jeder hat seine sympathische Seite
                                     Was sind wir Menschen doch für Leute
                                                     ALEXANDRA

                               Èç òóìàíà äîíîñÿòñÿ
                               ðåêè,
                               èç ãëóáèí îòêðûâàþòñÿ
                               ñâîäû.
                               Èç íåâåäîìûõ ñóùíîñòåé
                               òÿíåòñÿ
                               øëåéô çëîâîííîé,
                               íåâèäèìîé
                               íî÷è.
                               ßäîâèòû åå èñïàðåíüÿ,
                               îòâðàòèòåëüíû
                               åå ìèàçìû.
                               Æåëòîâàòû î÷åðòàíèÿ-
                               ïîëîñû
                               åå
                               òîêñè÷íîãî ãàçà.
                               Êëî÷êîâàòûå
                               è ïðîçðà÷íûå,
                               ýòè
                               ïðèçðà÷íûå
                               î÷åðòàíèÿ -
                               ëèøü íàìåê,
                               íî íå âîïëîùåíèå,
                               ÷òîá íèêòî íå ñìîã ñêàçàòü:
                               âîò îíî.

                               Ýòè îòðàâëåííûå,
                               êëóáÿùèåñÿ
                               âîëíû íåâèäèìîãî
                               çëîâîíèÿ
                               òÿíóò ùóïàëüöà
                               èç
                               íåóõâàòíîãî,
                               èç òîãî, ÷òî íå èìååò
                               íàçâàíèÿ.

                               Ýòî ñîí ðàñòåêàåòñÿ
                               ïî äåéñòâèòåëüíîñòè,
                               ñ íåé ñìåøàâøèñü,
                               âûòåêàÿ
                               ìîçãàìè ðàñïëàâëåííûìè.
                               Èñ÷åçàåò ãðàíèöà
                               êîøìàðîâ,
                               íåò èì áîëüøå
                               ïðåäåëà,
                               íåò
                               ðàìîê.
                               Ãèáðèä
                               ñíà è ðåàëüíîñòè
                               îòâðàòèòåëåí,
                               îìåðçèòåëåí.
                               Îí ñìååòñÿ
                               íàä âñåìè çàêîíàìè,
                               íàä èëëþçèåé
                               çàùèùåííîñòè,
                               îí íàä íàìè
                               ñîáîé èçäåâàåòñÿ,
                               äåìîíñòðèðóÿ
                               ñåáÿ,
                               íàñ øîêèðóÿ.
                               Â íàñ ïëþåò
                               íåâîçìîæíûìè
                               îáðàçàìè.

                               Îí âåäåò
                               çà ñîáîé
                               ñâîè îáðàçû,
                               ñâîè äåòèùà
                               èððåàëüíûå.
                               Îí ÷óäîâèù
                               èç ñåáÿ âûäåðãèâàåò,
                               íàì èõ äàðèò
                               ñ õîõîòîì
                               ìåòàëëè÷åñêèì.
                               Âëàñòü ñâîþ
                               îí èçëèâàåò íà íàñ
                               ÷åðåç ýòè
                               ïîðîæäåíèÿ àäñêèå,
                               íåâîçìîæíûì
                               ïåðåõëåñòûâàÿ
                               ÷åðåç íåâîçìîæíîå,
                               íåâåðîÿòíûì ïðåâûøàÿ
                               íåâåðîÿòíîå.
                               Ðàñòåêàþòñÿ,
                               ðàçáåãàþòñÿ
                               ñèëû çëîâåùèå,
                               ðàçëèâàþòñÿ
                               ïî ïîâåðõíîñòè
                               çíàêîìîãî,
                               ñî ñâîèìè ïîëêîâîäöàìè
                               æóòêèìè,
                               áàðîíàìè
                               òüìû
                               è ñòðàäàíèÿ.

                               Çàñêîðóçëûé ãðóçèí,
                               îáëà÷åííûé â êèòåëü,
                               ñëîâíî êóêëà
                               åðøèñòàÿ, ñòðàøíàÿ,
                               áåñíîâàòûé ãåðìàíåö
                               ñ ðûáüèìè ãëàçàìè,
                               ñ îáûâàòåëüñêîé
                               ÷åëêîé îáìàí÷èâîé,
                               èõ âîéñêà,
                               èõ àðìèè æóòêèå,
                               àðìèè çëà áåñïðåäåëüíîãî,
                               ðåêðóòèðóþùèå
                               æèâûõ ëþäåé;
                               è õ   - ñêåëåòîâ -
                               ìûñëè êðîâàâûå,
                               è õ    ýïîõè
                               çàñòûâøåãî âðåìåíè,
                               çàìîðîæåííîãî
                               â ãëûáó ÑÍÀ.
                               Ãëûáîé ëüäà
                               èõ ïðîñòðàíñòâà
                               ïàëà÷åñêèå,
                               ïðåâçîøåäøèå
                               çëî
                               èíêâèçèöèè.
                               Îðáèòû èõ
                               çëîäåÿíèé íåñëûõàííûõ
                               ñîâïàäàþò ñ îðáèòàìè
                               ñíîâèäåíèÿ...



                                       11

                               Êåì ìû ïîñàæåíû
                               â ïëåí îäíîìåðíîãî âðåìåíè?
                               âðåìåíè, òåêóùåãî òîëüêî âïðàâî?
                               âðåìåíè  î ä í î í à ï ð à â ë å í í î ã î?
                               Êòî ýòîò íåâèäèìûé
                               çàêîíîäàòåëü,
                               ëèøèâøèé íàñ
                               âîçìîæíîñòè
                               èäòè,
                               êóäà ìû õîòèì?
                               Æèçíü!
                               Ýòî íàì ïîäàðåííîå
                               ñóùåñòâîâàíèå.
                               Ýòî - ñìåðòü.
                               Ýòî íàì íàâÿçàííîå
                               íåáûòèå.
                               Ýòî - òî,
                               ÷òî èãðàåò â ñâîè
                               íåïîíÿòíûå èãðû,
                               âîâëåêàÿ íàñ â êðóãîâîðîò
                               ñâîèõ íåïîíÿòíûõ
                               çàìåí-îáîðîòíåé.

                               Ìû - ïëåííèêè ñòðóè âðåìåíè,
                               ìû - óçíèêè òâåðäîé ïîâåðõíîñòè.
                               Ìû - äåòè ðîäèòåëåé-ïëåííèêîâ,
                               è áóäóò ïëåííèêàìè
                               äåòè íàøèõ äåòåé.

                               Ñëîâíî íàñìåøêà
                               íàä íàøåé áåñïîìîùíîñòüþ
                               áåçâîëüíàÿ òüìà,
                               ñîí,
                               â êîòîðîì îáùàåìñÿ
                               ìû ñ ïîñëàíöàìè
                               ïðîøëîãî-áóäóùåãî,
                               ñ äóõîì
                               íåðàçäåëåííîãî âðåìåíè,
                               ñ ãëûáîé
                               âå÷íîé çèìû.

                               Íåò, íå ñ äóøàìè
                               óìåðøèõ
                               ìû âåäåì ðàçãîâîð:
                               ìû îáùàåìñÿ
                               ñ íàìè æå, ïëåííèêàìè;
                               ýòî íàñ ïåðåíîñÿò
                               â íàøå æå ïðîøëîå,
                               â íàøå ñ íèìè
                               îáùåå ïðîøëîå,
                               ïðîøëîå-íàñòîÿùåå,
                               ïðîøëîå-áóäóùåå,
                               áóäóùå-ïðîøëîå
                               "ñåé÷àñ".

                               Îò òîãî îíè "çíàþò"
                               î òåïåðåøíåì,
                               îòòîãî ìû çíàåì
                               îá èõ
                               "äàííîñòè",
                               îòòîãî,
                               ÷òî ÷óäîâèùíàÿ ãëûáà âðåìåíè
                               íå ðàçðóøàåìà
                               äèíàìèòîì
                               äåéñòâèòåëüíîñòè,
                               íå ïîäâëàñòíà
                               êîëëàïñó
                               ðåàëüíîñòè,
                               íå
                               ïåðåìàëûâàåòñÿ
                               íà æåðíîâàõ
                               ñíà.

                               È òîëüêî âî ñíå
                               (à íå â ðåàëèÿõ
                               ðàçäâîåííîãî âðåìåíè) -
                               áëåäíîé òåíè
                               Îêåàíà Âðåìåíè, -
                               ìû ïåðåøàãèâàåì
                               ÷åðåç ïîðîã
                               Îêíà.

                               È ëåòèì â ÷åðíóþ ïðîïàñòü
                               óìèðàíèÿ,
                               â áåçäíó
                               ýêñòðàïîëÿöèè ñëåäñòâèÿ
                               â äîïðè÷èííîå îáëàêî,
                               â äîèñòîðè÷åñêèé
                               âñïëåñê
                               ìûñëåôîðì.
                               È ïîíèìàåì, ÷òî -
                               íåò
                               íè Èñòîðèè,
                               íè Èìåí,
                               íè Ïðîñòðàíñòâ,
                               íè Âåëè÷èÿ.
                               Íåò Ñòðàí,
                               Ãîðîäîâ,
                               Íàçâàíèé,
                               Âûñêàçûâàíèé,
                               íåò Öèòàò,
                               Çíàìåíèòîñòåé:
                               íåò íè÷åãî.

                               Òîëüêî òîò,
                               êòî çà çàêðûòûìè âåêàìè
                               ñâîèìè íåóñûïíûìè
                               áîäðñòâóþùèìè
                               ãëàçíûìè
                               ÿáëîêàìè
                               ñóìååò
                               óõâàòèòü
                               íåÿñíûå ìåëüêàíèÿ - îáðàçû,
                               òîëüêî òîò
                               â ñîñòîÿíüè
                               óçðåòü â ýòèõ íå÷åòêèõ òåíÿõ
                               ìåòðîïîëèè
                               èìïåðèé èñ÷åçíóâøèõ,
                               ìîãóùåñòâåííûõ ìîíàðõîâ ïðîøëîãî,
                               ñöåíû èç æèçíè,
                               óøåäøåé â íåáûòèå
                               âíèç ïî íåâîçâðàòíîé Ðåêå Âðåìåíè,
                               îáðàçû æèçíè
                               äåéñòâèòåëüíîñòè,
                               è òåïåðü ãäå-òî òàê æå
                               ðîñêîøåñòâóþùåé:
                               âèííûå ïîãðåáà
                               ìîãóùåñòâåííûõ
                               è óáîãîñòü
                               ðàáîâ
                               ïîâåðæåííûõ.



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                               Êàìåííûå ãèðè ó ìåíÿ íà íîãàõ.
                               Ðóêè ìîè ñâÿçàíû ëþäñêèìè óñëîâíîñòÿìè.
                               Æèçíü ìîÿ íà ÿêîðå â ãàâàíè íèùåòû.

                               Ìîè ìûñëè ïðèêîâàíû öåïÿìè ïðåñëåäîâàíèé
                               ê êàìåííîé, çàñîõøåé ñ åùå êîíöà ïðîøëîãî òûñÿ÷åëåòèÿ
                               çåëåíîé êðàþõå õëåáà.

                               Ñåðäöå ìîå ïðèáèòî ñåðåáðÿíûìè ãâîçäèêàìè
                               ê âûñî÷åííîé ñòåíå ñóåòû,
                               è ÷óâñòâ ìîèõ âîçäóøíûé øàð ïðèâÿçàí ê êàìíþ
                               îáèä.

                               Ýòî ñîí èì ïðèêàçûâàåò, ÷òî äåëàòü ñî ìíîþ.
                               Ýòî îí èì âíóøàåò ñàäèñòñêèå çàìûñëû.
                               Ýòî îí ïðîãðàììèðóåò èõ áûòü ïîæåñò÷å ñî ìíîé.

                               Âìåñòå ñî ìíîé îòâåðæåíû ìîè áëèçêèå.
                               Ìîè áëèçêèå, ïðîäîëæåíüå ìåíÿ, ãåðîè áåçûìÿííûå.
                               Èõ ìó÷åíèÿ-ñòðàäàíèÿ ïðåâûøàþò ìîè.

                               È íà áîëè íåâèííûõ ìó÷åíèêîâ,
                               íà âåðøèíå çàïðåäåëüíîé íåñïðàâåäëèâîñòè,
                               ñòîèò ðîãàòàÿ òâàðü è óõìûëÿåòñÿ ÷åðíûì áåççóáûì ðòîì.
                              
                               È ìîë÷èò âñå ÷åëîâå÷åñòâî.
                               Êàê îäèí, áåçäåéñòâóþò çàùèòíèêè,
                               àäâîêàòû ìîè áåçîðóæíûå.

                               Î êàêèõ ïðàâàõ âû òîëêóåòå,
                               êîãäà ìû âî âëàñòè ñèë, íåïîäâëàñòíûõ íàì,
                               êîãäà íàä íàìè ïîñòàâëåíû ñàìè Íåïðàâîòà è Çëî?

                               Î ÷åì ðå÷è âåäåòå íå÷èñòûå,
                               êîãäà çíàåòå - êàæäûé ýãîèñò,
                               íè î ÷åì - íè î êîì  íå çàáîòèòñÿ.

                               Åñòü òîëüêî ñòèìóëû âîçáóæäåíèÿ,
                               ïîòðåáíîñòè ñåêñà è íàñûùåíèÿ,
                               è îò çàñòîÿ ìîçãîâ ðàçðåøåííûå æâà÷íûå "ñíû".

                               Ýëåêñèð-÷òèâî è ðàçâëå÷åíèÿ,
                               êàê è ñðåäñòâî îò îáëûñåíèÿ,
                               íå èìåþò öåëåé, íå ñëóæàò äîáðó:
                               ýòî ïðîñòî òîâàðû ïîòðåáèòåëüñêèå.

                               Èõ íàêëåéêà-ÿðëûê - "íàäî äåëàòü äîáðî",
                               "ñòàíåì êðåï÷å", "áóäåì ñàìîîáðàçîâûâàòüñÿ"...
                               Èõ ñóùíîñòü - ïîäàâëåíèå äîáðà,
                               ñðàáîòàíû îíè áåç òàëàíòà è âäîõíîâåíèÿ.

                               È âñå, ÷òî íå òàêîå, èçûìàåòñÿ, ïîäàâëÿåòñÿ,
                               ïîä ïðåññ, íà êîñòðû îòïðàâëÿåòñÿ,
                               òàéíî, óñëîæíåííî çàïðåùàåòñÿ
                               è â çàðîäûøå óíè÷òîæàåòñÿ.



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                                 ÑËÓÃÈ ÑÍÀ

                               Ñëóãè ñíà ïðèõîäÿò èç äûìÿùèõñÿ ðàçâàëèí,
                               âîçíèêàþò èç êîëåáëþùåéñÿ æàðû.

                               Èç ãîðÿùèõ ïëàâÿùèõñÿ ãîëîâåøåê
                               ñìîòðÿò ãëàçà ñòðàøíûõ êîãòèñòûõ òâàðåé.

                               Ïîñåëÿþò îíè â äóøàõ ñâîèõ èäîëîâ,
                               çàñòàâëÿþò ìîëèòüñÿ èì ñ óòðà ïðîñûïàþùèõñÿ.

                               Èìÿ èäîëàì - Äîì, Ìàøèíà,
                               Ñóììà â Áàíêå, Êðåäèò è Ðàáîòà.

                               Âñå â áåçäóøèè çà÷àòî çâåðèíîì,
                               â áåñêîíå÷íîé ãðûçíå çà ìåñòî ïîä ñîëíöåì.

                               Ýòîò ìèð - ýòî ñâàëêà êîéîòîâ,
                               ÷òî ñöåïèëèñü â ãðûçíå àãðåññèâíîé,

                               ýòîò ìèð - ýòî öàðñòâî Ãèåíû,
                               ïðèñïîñîáëåííîé áîëüøå, ÷åì Ëüâû.

                               Ñëóãè ñíà âîçíèêàþò âíåçàïíî,
                               ïðîíèêàþò îíè âî âñå. Îíè òûñÿ÷åîêè.

                               Îíè - òûñÿ÷åðóêè, âñåçíàþùè è íàõàëüíû,
                               çà íèìè - óñïåõ è áåçíàêàçàííîñòü â ìèðå "ðåàëüíîì".

                               Òàì, ãäå íå áûëî áàíêîâ,
                               ãäå ñîáñòâåííîñòü "îáîáùåñòâèëè",

                               ïðàâèëè òå æå çàêîíû,
                               òå æå ãèåíû, òîëüêî åùå çâåðèíåé.

                               Òàì áûëè èäîëàìè ïîõëåáêà íà óæèí,
                               êâàðòèðà íåñóðàçíàÿ ñ îáùåé êóõíåé,

                               ìå÷òà çàõâàòèòü êîìíàòó ñîñåäà,
                               íà êîòîðîãî
                               äîíîñ ñîñòàâëåí,
                               öåíîé åãî æèçíè îòâîåâàòü òðè ìåòðà
                               â ýòîì öàðñòâå óáîãîñòè è õîëóéñòâà.

                               Íàøèìè çëîäåÿíèÿìè æèâèòñÿ çëî,
                               ýòî åãî êðîâü, åãî æèçíåííàÿ ñèëà.

                               Íî è ñàìè îíè â íàñ çàëîæåíû èì,
                               â íàøè âñòàâëåíû ìûñëè øåïîòêîì
                               ñàòàíèíñêèì.

                               Ñëóãè ñíà âñåñóùè, îíè âåçäå,
                               îíè íà ëåñòíèöàõ è â êîðèäîðàõ.

                               È ãëàçà èõ áëåñòÿò èç òåìíîòû,
                               ñèÿþò îãíåì ïîòàéíûì, çëîâåùèì.

                               Íà èõ ãîëîâàõ çàäèðàþùèéñÿ êàïþøîí,
                               â èõ ðóêå òîïîð ïàëà÷à èëè ñóäüè ñêèïåòð.

                               Îíè â îäíîì ëèöå - çàêîíîäàòåëè è ïàëà÷è,
                               è ñóäüè, êîòîðûì äàíî ïðàâî ñóäèòü íåâèííûõ.

                               Ñâîèìè çìåèíûìè ãîëîñàìè îíè ðàñòóò
                               äî íåáåñ, äî ïðåäåëîâ âñåãî ìèðîçäàíüÿ.

                               Âåðîëîìíîñòü èõ äàæå âûøå íåáåñ,
                               ïðîòûêàÿ ñîáîé Êîñìîñ, Âñåëåííóþ,
                               Ãðàíèöó Ïðåäåëîâ.



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                               Íåìîùíàÿ, ïî-ñòàðóøå÷üè ñîãíóòàÿ,
                               ïðèõîäèò Íî÷ü ñî ñïèöàìè â ðóêàõ.
                               Ñëåòàåò ëåòó÷àÿ ìûøü
                               ñî ñâîåãî óêðûòèÿ.
                               Ìåñÿö
                               áðîñàåò ñâîè æåëòûå ìîíåòû
                               äëÿ íèùèõ è òåõ, êîìó íå ñïèòñÿ.
                               Ðàçâåøèâàåò çâåçäû
                               ñòàðûé âñåëåíñêèé ìóäðåö.
                               È â êðîâàòÿõ äóøèò ñâîè æåðòâû
                               ÷åðíûé ÷åëîâåê,
                               îáðàç áåç òåëà,
                               òåëî áåç ìûñëè,
                               òåíü áåç íîñèòåëÿ,
                               ïàëà÷ áåç ðóê.

                               Äóøèò ñíîì, óñûïëÿåò;
                               çàäóøåííûõ, òÿíåò â ñâîþ ñòðàíó.
                               Â ñâîþ òþðüìó.
                               Â òþðüìó ìåðòâåöîâ.

                               È, ïðîñûïàÿñü, îæèâëåííûå,
                               îíè íå ñâîáîäíû.

                               Ýòî òîëüêî äî ñëåäóþùåãî ðàçà.
                               Äî ñëåäóþùåé òüìû.

                               Äî ñëåäóþùåãî   ï ð è õ î ä à...

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                              ÏÎÑËÅÑËÎÂÈÅ

                               Âîçíèêíåò íåáî.
                               Èñ÷åçíåò ñóìðàê.
                               Îí â ÷åðíîì íåáå îí âèäåí.
                               ÎÍ ìåðòâ.
                               Ïåïåë êðóæèòñÿ ñóõèìè êðûëüÿìè.
                               Êàøåëü ñûïèò ðàçëîæåíüÿ ïåñîê.
                               È ïóñòûíÿ âå÷íîñòè íå êàæåòñÿ
                               áåñêîíå÷íîé.

                               Ýòî âûâîä ïðèøåë.
                               Ýòî ïîäâåëñÿ èòîã.
                               Ýòî èç äâóõ ãîëîâ
                               îòðåçàííûõ
                               âûðàñòàåò ÷óäîâèùå
                               ñ ãëàçàìè öâåòà ìîðñêîé âîëíû.

                               Ýòî òèêàåò áåçîñòàíîâî÷íî
                               òîíêàÿ ïîëîñêà æåëòîãî ïëàìåíè.


                                             1988, Âàðøàâà -
                                             1989, Ïàðèæ, -
                                             1990, Ìîñêâà, -
                                             1993,  Òåëü-Àâèâ -
                                             1995, Ìîíðåàëü


                Copyright š Lev Gunin
                Montreal 1998


  
 



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