I'M SO ASHAME
I'm so ashame of my own life,
I hate my future and my past...
Why you refuse to give me knife
To turn this pain into the dust?
I'm so ashame of my own words
I told you at the day you left,
I'm so afraid of these shut doors
And freaky tired to play dead.
I'm so ashame of my saint dreams
And of nightmares, haunting me.
I hate your God, because He seems
To stay so deaf to every plea...
My heart's hiding too much of hate,
And I too often feel ashame,
Too often think it is too late
To back and to call out your name.
I know I'm slightly going mad
And suffocating of this hurt...
I force myself to understand
How long I must to crawl through cold
Or what's the sence of this mistake,
Of our meeting, burnt with lie...
I only broke what I must break -
Don't need forgiveness from the Sky.